Life|Love|Loss: Yesterday the snow drifted towards Earth once again. My day was similarly dotted by other floating spirits of sorts. The Portland Art Museum offered a moving and intimate (though full to the rafters) memorial for Terry Toedtemeier. It was great to stand in the midst of a community, in a crowd full of artists, curators, collectors, docents, teachers, scientists, everyday people, etc. Standing alongside Rob we became part of the fabric of the crowd, as a festive undercurrent warmed people sharing their personal stories. There were many familiar faces, notably several artists and the hardest working regional photographers. A few people in the crowd close to Terry mentioned he would have loved to see this sea of folks.
Later in the day we headed to see the much talked about David Fincher movie, The Curious Case of Benjamin Button. As far as film is concerned it was OK, but in terms of storytelling, it was superb. The whole life in reversal was done with a sense of style. The story of how we lose love and gain it back in mysterious ways. Cate Blanchett is so very beautiful, and I was surprised to see both her and my other favorite British actress, Tilda Swinton, in the same film (never on screen together of course). With such a powerhouse cast I was delighted that the acting highlight here is actually by a rather unknown supporting actress, Taraji P. Henson, as Queenie, Button’s surrogate mom. The performance is passionately believable throughout. Based on a short story (though the film lasts three hours) by F. Scott Fitzgerald (1921), its fueled by special make up and computer/airbrushed effects that are at times a lil’ unnerving, but there are some gorgeous scenes in New Orleans that capture the grandeur of another time altogether.
And when we exited the theater there was a dusting of snow-cover over the downtown streets at every corner.
Though I have never owned one of his records, couldn’t hum a single song nor name a title by Manson, his very candid interviews show an offstage persona of intelligent life on Earth. I appreciate the acceptance of backhanded comments, his references to Dada and his painting as an outlet for being an ‘outsider’. And though his interviews on Bill Maher’s show, David Letterman, O’Reilly and others often turn a few ears with amusement, he continues to push the envelope.
I’m not so sure I am in love with the punctuated way we communicate these days. I wrote a single line on Facebook today that read simply “TJ is actively seeking a new, creative part-time job, suggestions welcome….”. It’s so brief and hardly gets at the core of my personal, creative economy doubts. Yes, it’s a New Year, and we anticipate lots of slow change in a new President and new Mayor, but does leadership in and of itself define the root of change? As an optimist I still have my cautious skepticism for the coming year. Not necessarily in the potential of this change for the greater good, though perhaps in the fundamental shift that takes place in each of us as individuals, in the processing of all this newness. It’s hard to put into simple words, it’s part of our DNA, a part of our own histories with family, career, relationships, accomplishments, and overall growth.
IS IT REALLY LONELY UP THERE?: I went to see the film Synecdoche, NY today. It shook a chord being partly a futuristic, segmented play within a play, raw and emotional. Not a happy go lucky type film by any stretch, but an amazing work of cinema by Charlie Kaufman nonetheless. It was great to see such a cast of actors in one film, but of course, it centers around an insular playwright enacted by the formidable Philip Seymour Hoffman, who I have mentioned here before, and surely may again. At the top of his game, on New Year’s Day I also saw him in Doubt alongside Meryl Streep (who was superb in the role of Sister Agnatius). I mention Hoffman because he’s so earnest on screen, often playing characters in some form of lament, turmoil, life changing experience. A dose of reality without the cloying aftertaste of something made for battling brides, supermodels, island castaways or board room ejects. He paces his roles, and in many ways I see him as somewhat of peer role model (we are only a few years apart). Of course he’s already been to the Oscar podium a few times, and though I have no penchant for grasping the idol, I think he’s done deservedly so with integrity.
OK, this isn’t a PSH lovefest now. And perhaps I got off the point, but you just can’t avoid being mused by actors - they are like empty canvases that form delicately with time. And besides, when you are in the process of re-shaping your career in some way, if you rely on hard-n-fast rules you will lose your own elegant sense of asymmetry. So, it’s with this less fleshed out perspective that I go into the night seeking some form of creative work that will bring me at least a sense of passing joy (and knowing that the roof overhead will remain somewhat balanced in the process). Not a woe-is-me wake up call, more like a reaching out to you and yours to see if there is anything you know about that might be tailor made for a shapeshifter like me.
Maybe I should take up acting?
After all I don’t have a day job to give up!
INSIDE/OUT JOKE: This year is the first in a half-dozen years where I am not entertaining a “best of” list of any sort. I used to compile the ‘ten best recordings of the year’ for several publications, and a massive overview of the arts scene in the Pacific Northwest. This year I rather ogle new blood (n’ other sources), like the funny offering above, coming from Regina Hackett’s always spiced Art To Go (one of only a handful of blogs I read on a semi-regular basis). I really appreciate the humor here as well, as my compadre Scott Wayne Indiana said recently too me, we need more of it in the art world in general - I couldn’t agree more. The above may be a Seattle ‘in joke’ - but from my perspective, after this year’s selection in the Contemporary Northwest Art Awards, the artist here has been at least somewhat dutifully honored in ‘08, and his work (great stuff by the way) was featured in PICA’s TBA Festival too.
TEMPERATURE’S RISIN’: The Portland Mercury took the time to point out A Year In Review, and I align with at least three of Mr. Motley’s seven strongest highlights and observations. Of course, on their yellow brick road (+ great new disc) Antony + the Johnsons stole TBA this year.
AUTO-ACCOLADES: Over at Port, a local art blog serving “art geeks and the cognoscenti”, prove to never be too shy to roll their own credits. In 2008 they wonderfully managed to cover all ‘Couture‘ exhibitions except one, and still manage to keep their right hand column intact.
TIMPANI, PLEASE: Which leads me to feeling somewhat “vindicated” (very unlike Susan Lucci), by Willamette Week naming my Infinitus “Best Installation of 2008“. Though I can’t really coo with the same subtlety, in the words of a fallen disco diva, “I feel love”.
Should auld acquantaince be forgot?:
As 2009 looms brightly I’ve made some interesting observations. I’m excited that next year we will induct our 44th president (one who actually smiles) in the year that I turn the same number of years young. Over the coming months I am involved in two exhibitions, one here and one elsewhere, and have two speaking engagements at PSU and PAM. It’s the first time in my life that I am seriously contemplating grad school, and by year end will get back to New England for the first time since ‘06, more twos. In ‘09 I will have lived in the state of Oregon for eight years, so more even numbers (good for Libra). Ultimately, the belt’s been extremely tight around my search for quality employment in a satisfying field, even outside the periphery. Instead I have decided to continue to do two things that bring me a sense of calm, and balance: consolidate my world posessions and read. I had the pleasure of serving on my first RACC panel this year, and completed a wonderful residency at Caldera back in February. Two friends suggested books, so I hopped online and bought both The Gift by Lewis Hyde (thanks Paul) and On Seeing by F. Gonzalez-Crussi (thanks Chas). At year end I offer no “Best Of” list - and I met a goal weighing in at a net annual loss 13#. I’m about to embark on a new body of work that keeps me somewhat sequestered in the studio, making something of a foreign cousin to the classic still life. 2008 was a melange of things, and the new year, from the outset, already hints at surpassing what’s been kickstarted thusfar. Happy New Year everybody!
After hearing of the death of Eartha Kitt on Christmas Day there was something special about this holiday in a passing glint of light. She was indeed the living legend who crooned ‘Santa Baby’ among many other favorites. Having had the true pleasure of seeing her perform live thrice in various style venues, I was honored to meet her face-to-face when she was in Portland in ‘02, she autographed my Bear Family Box Set with a sense of candor and openness, a true lady of class and style. In one show (circa mid 80s) she danced with high Rockettes-style kicks, bountiful laughter, she was raucous (and even within the age of retirement). I’ll never forget a show I attended with my friend Charlie at Sculler’s where she punctuated nearly every song with laughter. Her show was full of charm, and like her infamous portrayal of Catwoman, she seemed to have as many lives, though she leaves this one at 81 years young as she may have said. The loss of Kitt brought to mind the many that have passed of late, those who made us smile, laugh, think and wonder, maybe even self-edit or question reality at times. Every annum I reflect on the twelve months recently served and how it shape-shifts the greater community of working artists. Many changes this past year as we lost some true greats - peers, mentors, spirits having flown. Some we’ve met, or learned from, influences or collaborators, their memory lives on…
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George Brecht
Harold Pinter
Robert Rauschenberg
Freddie Hubbard
Sam Bottoms
Odetta
Paul Newman
Bo Diddley
Henri Chopin
Miriam Makeba
Roy Scheider
Heath Ledger
Nagi Noda
Robert Hazard
Bruce Conner
Michael Crichton
James E. Jones
Robert Graham
Henning Christiansen
Studs Terkel
Levi Stubbs
Willoughby Sharp
Bettie Page
Adam Nodelman
Richard Wright
Suzanne Pleshette
Mario Schiano
Charleton Heston
Isaac Hayes
George Carlin
Paul Benedict
Terry Toedtemeier
Estelle Getty
Yma Sumac
Eartha Kitt
OK, as I always say, it’s another “Portland Moment”! So, we broke some record from 1968. Now, let’s prove our weight in gold, er, white I guess. While it’s easy to gloss over all that’s under our feet, it’s tackle time! The City That Works, in the words of a tall black ’supermodel’, You Better Work! This winter wonderland is slow-churning, turning into a gloppy, big bad mess! If more people could wield a 9″ stiletto the world might be a better place through the thick of things like this, but some have long ago hung their heels to dry.
Without getting too high on a soapbox, just a few observances about this waning storm. Yes, it was a white Christmas for the most part, but now we have a sorta sludge-slush aftermath, and ruts to deal with. Most side streets have not at all been plowed, some not even traveled for several days, you can see the cars that haven’t been moved since the first snow wave hit over four days ago. The blogs (this one is slightly bitchy but the more power to ‘em) are chock-full of people with questions (and complaints) about whose responsibility it is for snow removal, and yes, I even mentioned it the other day, but again - safety is the main concern here. And by now, most people have seen the infamous YouTube vids as featured on “Bruce and Tina“. As a pedestrian I trekked today over parts of Northeast Portland, with its many side streets cluttered by 8″ thick waves of dirty icy snow, pretty much impassible by human feet unless you have those knee-high galoshes from the 70s. Dave Knows made me laugh. The mushy sidewalks, even right nearby the Max are not cleared, no salt, no de-icer for people to walk on, just uneven impacted snow, melting in parts to mush. Are those ‘required’ chains any good for open roads even after most highways and main drags are clear? Where to walk? Who’s responsible to clean it up?
For some, unlike the record broken, it’s a broken record. “The city has spent 1000s, millions on cleanup and we have nothing to show for it”. The questions roll in. What are the liabilities? How many accidents could be prevented? Is the city disabled?….And the converse: The blaming finger pointing squarely at the lazy gits for not perhaps taking a day off from the mallrat walk down at the Lloyd and perhaps instead finding a real way of earning some extra cash asking people if they need their walkway shoveled for a tenner. Is the art of valiant streetwise entrepreneurialism dead in the twenty-first century?
The papers are talking back too. I found this bit on Oregonlive, and some more facts at the Seattle Post Intelligencer. Even the NYTimes got in on our action. Did you know that in some parts of the country businesses, and even residents get fined if they do not remove snow from their property and sidewalks within a reasonable period of time (often 48 hours). Extensions are provided if ice is involved, but a basis for cleaning up the mess is standard preventing being further buried, or flood damage. Property owners in some neighborhoods do take pride, but on a long walk down Halsey, of the near 100 houses I passed a mere one single family home had shoveled around their perimeter and dropped some of those lil white de-icing pellets which make it easier to walk on (hmmm, progress). The temps over the last two days have been commensurate with some serious shoveling and snow blowing action, of which I didn’t spy any in my travels. But I could only get around on a limited basis, wherever my feet and Max would lead, but it was a messy mix, especially being splashed by an oncoming car with slushy debris. I know, go and build a tall snowman! This lady tells it like it is:
Of all the pieces I read, this one by Michael Milstein was the most practical of all (get out there, people!). Just read this about garbage courtesy of KTVL (peee-ewww)! I could appreciate Sam Adams appeal seen in the Tribune. I saw one newscast with Nick Fish out in the thick of it driving around in his lil’ Celica I think, he seemed a bit fearless about what to do, and he was tending to people in need at the time, it was nice to watch him take action. But words need to translate into laws before a weather-slacker population takes heed. I sound like that online guy who complains about everything, but I assure you its me, and I just am ‘over it’ - trying to trudge that is. Jen caught the beauty of it all out near Alberta Street:
Dear reader - mind you it is heartwarming to hear the positive effects such as this one at “Starting Over in the Rose City” - I’m getting down and real…so, any thoughts, or should I just look in the opposite direction (to the South) and let this blow over? Maybe I just need a vacation, Palm Springs sounds nice about now….This guy has the spirit (or maybe that’s called loco):
WELCOME WINTER: It’s only the first full day of Winter and it’s showing its true colors, WHITE! We tried to get some corn for poppin’…for a movie that is! But the weather has seemingly incapacited the City of Portland. It was like a glass bubble out there.
OK, so this is a record storm in this century. Some might say ‘freak storm’, etc. It’s been over eight years and 3K+ miles since I have seen this much of the real thing on the ground, and at first it seems like a blanket of holiday magic. Then thoughts of safety and travel dance like sugarplums for me. It’s nice to have the ambient sound barrier created by the falling bits, and how it slows things down to a snail’s pace. The other thing that sets in, of course, is cabin fever, however, I’ve been under the weather as of late so I’ve been in most of the past week. Watch out for broken chains, intermittent electricity because of downed power lines and all the typical dangers that come from the deep freeze….It made for a nice walk down Peacock Lane, however!
Keep warm, bake bread!
Photos:
(top) Mike + Doug Starn
(bottom) Rob Baxter
So, another year has slipped by and the holidays are upon us once again. And with an imminent recession who thinks of shopping for dust collectors in this time of need? Museum and gallery closures are predicted over the coming few years, but let’s keep hope alive especially with an incoming prez who seems to want to make right for those who have less now than ever before.
You could remain in the background, or rest between the sheets, but no, you are a smart cookie, a concerned cultural advocate wanting to see real change. Over the last few years I’ve tried to take my turn at bat, donating to all sorts of very worthy causes, including wielding a less-than-poison pen, and generally causing some distorted brows, and perhaps a Mona Lisa smile in the crowd. But I’ve kept unBlogged (and other pursuits) in the community’s minds eye. I’ve the psycho/social fuel to carry on. But fueling the bank is hapless these days (ask me for details if you don’t already know the whole story). This holiday season and into the new year, consider clicking below to keep me busy, and typing away just so.
Anything helps really, but when considering economies (cultural, social, trade-based, other), note that I certainly have not relied on any form of advertising dollars (check my sidebar). If you are reading this, even if a first-timer here, together we somehow effectively enrich each other, even if within a split-second passing afterthought. That fleeting reality understood, it is an honor to effectively journal the interesting, gorgeous, obtuse, and downright fringe happenings all around me. Perhaps it’s not always the headliners, or even one liners, just know that with me I’ll dig up the most interesting among us, those who always find their way between the lines. With newspapers sadly losing status, we are simply left with each other to culturally fend for ourselves, out here on the world wild web. Though I can’t see you, know I am very thankful to have your loyal (or passing) readership. If you consider that click wisely I’ll thank you publically here - or politely keep it as discrete and anonymous as you request. Operators are standing by as it’s easy with PayPal, you just click on my twin heads above (that’s my good side, and the other cheek).
It’s About Time (& Place) W/Out Borders: This ain’t no advent calendar, white elephant handout. As an incentive, for a limited time only, I plan on sending up to the first 20 who respond with a donation of $25 (or more) a limited edition small piece that will be made for this sole purpose. Help keep my roof and know you will become a star atop my lil’ tree.
SEVENTH HEAVEN: There is nothing more interesting than the human face, don’t you agree? So much depth and passion, pride and self-consciousness, fire and ice. I guess I am posing another contest. Do you love faces as much as I do? If you can guess each famous entertainer behind the mugshots above, before December 15th, you will receive a special prize.
For all the visually inclined, I was surprised not to even get a stab at these, however, I try to hold nothing back, like the identities of these fine, rare faces….
Terry Toedtemeier, Portland’s preeminent proponent of all things photography passed away last evening after presenting a lecture. The earnest and gentlemanly soft spoken nature photographer and curator laid the foundation for the current Wild Beautyexhibition. Life can be as fleeting as the click of a shutter, and after just having seen him at Steve Schapiro’s talk a week or so ago, he was as full of life as ever. Toedtemeier is survived by his wife of several years, writer and teacher Prudence Roberts. As the Curator of Photography at the Portland Art Museum for the last 25 years he also helped co-found Blue Sky Gallery, and like myself was active with the Advisory Board of Newspace Center for Photography and elsewhere. For 17 years he taught at PNCA. In many ways it can be said that the intimate power of the region’s photography community was doubly fortified by his life’s work. In Portland, his work is represented by PDX. He will be greatly missed. Take a moment to engage his amazing spirit of the Northwest today.
Last night I witnessed something special for the holiday season - wonderfully colorful, and furry! The Portland Winterhawks held their annual Teddy Bear Toss and it drew over 7500 people to the Memorial Colliseum. It was beautiful! There were so many they had to have voluteers from the Army to help stack them into giant bins. I must have gotten hit by at least four dozen bears as they flew above my head. My black clothes were covered in multicolored fake fur. I’ve historically been involved in similar events, but this was by and large the most toy animals I’ve seen in one place at one time. Though the Hawks didn’t win the game the spirit is in the air as 23,000 stuffed critters will be delivered by the players to area children’s programs over the coming weeks.
My Falling Deathstar is featured on an Ebay auction as part of the ongoing fundraiser for Complete Skate. This or others in the auction would make a great holiday gift, and help out the kids in the program as well. On December 4th you can attend the final auction live. The Silent Auction will feature food and drinks by Provvista Foods and Lord Beltane. Bidding on 50 original artworks will culminate simultaneously in person at the event and online through missionfish.org and purchases of artwork are tax-deductible. Admission to this First Thursday event is free and takes place at Design Within Reach (1200 NW Everett St). Bid early, bid often.
FAR FROM A CRAP SHOOT: Regina Hackett of the Seattle Post Intelligencerdid a nice piece looking at this most important topic for our times, race and its representation in art. She chose to focus specifically onJack Daws (above) and Nayland Blake (below), both whom are included in the exhibition .meta which I curated (on view through 11/29). The understatements (subtext) in both of these men’s ongoing work cannot be divorced from the overall message of their surfaces. It’s often only about the time you pair yourself with the objects and images they make until things start to fall into place.
A few years ago I made a unique large-scale photographic piece called blackpower which sold to a collector at Harvard University. In January I will reprise it as a smaller lightbox as part of a group exhibition at Beppu Wiarda curated by Leo Michelson. The piece was something of a summation of many years growing up during the years of bussing in what I might call a ‘white ghetto’ smack dab in the heart of 70’s Boston.
> I will give a gallery talk on .meta at Linfield College on 11/12 @ 4PM <
